Just think .. am I can take it .? my highest dream just one .. is to love and get a love from You but, in this world many things happen and it makes me confuse and want to give up .. as long as this long road .. I want to stop my walk cause I don't have any motivation ... sometimes .. till I find the new one .. a spirit that makes me step up and get up of the world behind me .. a spirit to configure my heart.. my mind .. my body and get the work hard to face the uneasy world .. I couldn't cry sometimes but many times I couldn't holding it .. I just want to free of this bad feeling and hope My God always give His bless and His love to me .. I just need it, the love without requirement ..

poem?

When the waiting is so longing :) but sometimes it's exciting so much . .
the word that seems ridiculous but really fabulous . .
as times as goes seems like a wind that passing away to the large land ... in the large land the wind could dancing on the ground through the trees see the wind and join in ....
the time that never comeback will become a greatest time to take many risk of many chances :)

take your chances to the beautiful month that gives many interest to you :)

happy is when you think that you're happy _아이니_

What's My dream??

I don't even know what dream is,, i don't even know why everyone talk about it..

I.. don't have any dream,, huuhh,, no noo,, i mean,, so many dream that i don't know...
so many dream that i want to follow,, but,, so many way that i just stuck on that dream..
I.. just want to feel free of all ..
but,, the dream was so high ,, so unreachable..cause,, i just a tiny person,, i just couldn't do anything.. i just.. just dreaming..
It was really hard,, when the dream just can't reach..
but i have one dream that i want .. really i want to reach..
I want,, to love You always,, and loved by You..
cause everything will be okay with You,,
My God,, i just need You..
Really need You..

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Semua manusia,, sama di mata-Nya .. hanya ketakwaan yang membedakannya:)

seutas kalimat yang sangat berarti banyak:)
betapa besar perbedaan manusia antar manusia :) kaya miskin :) rajin malas :) semua hanya perbedaan yang sangat tidak terlalu berarti jika dibandingkan dengan taat:) namun jalan menuju taat terkadang terlalu banyak rintangan sehingga banyak yang dilalui hanyalah sebuah perjalanan tanpa nilai . nilai perjalanan yang nol sama saja dengan berjalan ditempat dan hal itu sama saja seperti tak melakukan apapun:) tapi ternyata selalu ada kebaikan walau hanya nol tak pernah rugi:) walau sekecil apapun Sang Maha Pencipta tak pernah tak peduli:) selalu peduli dan selalu menyayangi hamba-Nya walau terkadang dan seringnya melupakan Ia saat kebahagiaan datang:) maafkan hamba yang sering lupa Yaa Rabb :) berikan cinta-Mu untuk kehidupan yang selalu kau berikan anugerah :)

Night..

When I write something .. I know something .. I love to write than to tell.. I love when I share my story in it..

When the loneliness comes .. I want make it away from me.. But, I just can't .. I don't know ..
Could you help me God ?? I don't know where I get the help ..
I just need You ..

My God.. My Rabb..
Yesterday I got something from You ..

Something will be easy for You if You want it happens ..
I know it yesterday .. Maybe not just yesterday but my mind just clear yesterday .. Give the bright mind , the true heart to me God .. Just what You give that will be benefit .. I know always a secret in everything .. Thank's You My Rabb..

Bright

I saw the bright around your face ..
I saw the sweet smile around you ..
Your happiness make me happy and smile too ..

Do you know that I can't forget about you ..
Even you are far away .. But I believe .. We'll be gather as a best friend again .. And sharing our story .. And fight together .. Debating .. Laughing .. And all of our happiness will be sheet by His blessing ..

I never think you were gone .. I think you still here with me .. With us .. And you are unreplaceable thing in my life ..

Do you know .. You make me stronger again .. And .. I want to near to the light as you ..
I want to love My God over the things around me and my life ..
Cause it will calm my heart..
I'm so thankful have a friend like you ..